2 weeks post op!

Well we are now almost two weeks post op and Brandon is healing absolutely great. What a crazy ride! Two weeks ago I couldn't even believe that I had put my tiny little boy through this and now... well now it all seems like a dream, granted not a very good dream but a dream none the less! We went for our follow up appointment today with Dr. Elton his neurosurgeon and got the O.K on his healing and visible facial outcome. There is some minor swelling still but everything looks a.o.k to him. We will have to go back to both Dr. Elton his neurosurgeon and Dr. Schmelzer his cranial facial surgeon (plastic surgeon) on May 12th for his 3 month follow up. They should be able to see the outcome better by this date because the swelling should be gone.

Dr. Elton is such a wonderful doctor and he let me take a picture of him and Brandon!

Side view of my custome made noggin!

Granted there is still some pretty visible bruising but this looks worlds better than even two days ago!

Day 7

You should see the other guy!!!

Day 4, peakin through his slits!

Brandon's Article!

Brandon had an article written about him by the wonderful Mesa Tribune journalist Michelle Reese! Thank you Michelle!

http://www.eastvalleytribune.com/story/150385

Day 3 and very swollen.

Day 1

The road to recovery.

Brandon underwent surgery 2/5 to correct his prematurely fused sutures. We arrived bright and early on Friday morning at 5:30am and my poor baby wasn't allowed to eat anything starting twelve hours before the surgery so Brandon's last meal had been at his normal bedtime at 6:00pm the night before. Even with no food in his belly he still seemed to be in good spirits. We were checked in and waiting in pre-op before we knew it. Finally after what seemed like a very long wait Dr. Elton and Dr. Schmelzer came into the room to let us know that they were ready. Marvyn one of the nurses that were going to be in the room during the operation explained what was going to happen regarding anesthesia and that he would update us periodically throughout the whole operation. I kissed my little baby's bulby forehead for the last time as tears were streaming down my face.

We were told that the procedure would take roughly 4 hours but about two hours in Dr. Elton came out to tell us it was a success and Dr. Schmelzer was finishing up with the stitches. Relief. We were to go to the PICU waiting room and as soon as Brandon was transferred into his bed we could go in and see him. I was so ready just to see my little buddy, to touch him and make sure he was whole. Finally around 1ish he was settled into his room and resting comfortably with the help of some morphine. I don't think i have ever hurt more inside in my whole life than i do now. I know that i did the right thing and i know that the swelling will go down and I will be able to recognize my beautiful baby boys face again however I cant help but question why i did this to my sweet little baby.

We are now on the other side. The swelling is bad but I think i now am noticing it starting to go down. I am so ready to see his sweet little smile again. I am ready for him to laugh. I am ready for him to not hurt anymore.

Pre-op over and counting down.

We had our pre-op appointment Monday 2/1 and it went as well as to be expected. I am very sad to think that pretty soon my baby will look different. I love his little bulby forehead and dented nose. We also had his blood work done this day and I feel so sad. I couldn't even stay in the room and comfort him because as soon as they started to wrap him up in order to keep him still I semi wigged out, tears, studder and all. Dad had to go back to work after the Neurosurgeon pre-op appointment so it was only me during the blood work and I couldn't even be supportive for my baby :( Sad, its definitely hitting me, I feel like this is all my fault. I know this is not the way I should be but how can I help it. My little buddy is small and I cant explain to him that we are doing this so that he will be socially excepted and have a better chance at life. I feel so numb. I feel horrible. I feel like its all my fault. Tomorrow is the big day.